giving up with a smile on my face

I never thought that I'd ever say " I give up " and end up with the slightest smile on my face...

Since I can remember I've wanted to find someone to be with that isn't going to use me and turn into a complete asshole a month into a relationship. Honestly, I'm tired of looking, because it's never worked. I get interested in someone & either they show interest, we date and they're horrible, or they never show interest back and leave me hanging...

I simply give up.

For once I'd like to not worry about weather he likes me or not, and try moving on with my life.

As far as I know, I'm moving this summer, I dunno where yet, and I'd like to spend the rest of my time in Rochester with my friends, what few I have, and make the most of what we've got left.

Perhaps a move will give me grounds to start over again or something.

If I dont move this summer, then I guess it gives me time to do things I wanted to do...